Today I return to work after three weeks off. I don’t want to. My holiday is officially over.
That’s about it really.
The Cruel Sea ~ The Honeymoon is Over
Row 1 – Moon, Rider and Lily.
Beauty and luck/ new ideas and invitations in relation to my professional life are on the way. Possibly a new job.
Row 2 – Cross, Tree and Key.
Growth and success is destined.
Row 3 – Stork, Dog and Bear.
A big event with a friend.
Column 1 – Moon, Cross and Stork.
An event that is destined and is beautiful and lucky.
Column 2 – Rider, Tree and Dog.
News to be received that will grow into something wonderful with a friend/ about a friend.
Column 3 – Lily, Key and Bear.
A career is going to be very important.
Diagonal 1 – Moon, Tree and Bear.
Beauty and luck or an invitations generating substantial growth.
Diagonal 2 – Lily, Tree and Stork.
A burgeoning business as a result of an event.
In short, growth. The beautiful Tree in the centre confirms that the following week will be full of growth involving my professional life (Lily), a friend (Dog) and will include invitations (Moon), an event (Stork) all of which will be big in the scheme of things (Bear), destined (Cross) and successful (Key).
I’ve been home from my holiday for three days now and today an overwhelming sense of homesickness fell upon me. But how can you be homesick for somewhere that is not your home?
The last two weeks of my life were a whirlwind of excitement, new experiences, fierce independence, non-stop activity, massive anxiety, total serenity and immense happiness. Since being back in Australia I’ve been thrust into the routine of my home life and caring for two children under the age of seven. I’ve been brought back to an aesthetic environment I always loved yet now question if it is the right environment for me.
The last leg of my journey was Vancouver B.C. The love that was extended to me from the people who lived there was something I hadn’t experienced in a long time, and I felt an affinity with the city itself which is something that has alluded me in the past wherever I have been.
Driving around Adelaide today I looked at my surrounds and felt disappointed with what I saw. The flatness of the land, the lack of greenery, the blandness of the clouds. I felt uncomfortable in my hometown and homesick for Vancouver.
I miss its vast mountain sides…
I miss the white, fluffy clouds that went on, seemingly, forever…
I miss the simple, yet abundantly tree-lined streets…
I miss the random swings hanging from the trees for children to play on…
I miss the public book exchange cupboards scattered throughout the suburbs…
I miss its stunning landscape…
I miss everything about Vancouver.
Not having experienced such a loss of equilibrium before, I’m unsure if what I’m feeling is ‘normal’ and to be expected. I hope the loneliness I’m currently feeling is temporary, the result of coming down from the high of my travels, and that when I commence work again I will simply be embedded within a routine I’m used to and such feelings will be nullified. In all honesty, I highly doubt it.
On my third night in LA, my third night alone in a new country, a friend sent me a message that said “For you xx” and included this song. Over the course of the next two weeks every time I felt alone, scared, vulnerable, sad, homesick or anxious I would read that message and listen to the song. It centred me. It made me smile.
City and Colour ~ Woman
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it makes me wonder.
There’s a feeling I get when I look to the west,
And my spirit is crying for leaving.
In my thoughts I have seen rings of smoke through the trees,
And the voices of those who stand looking.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it really makes me wonder.
And it’s whispered that soon, if we all call the tune,
Then the piper will lead us to reason.
And a new day will dawn for those who stand long,
And the forests will echo with laughter.
If there’s a bustle in your hedgerow, don’t be alarmed now,
It’s just a spring clean for the May queen.
Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run
There’s still time to change the road you’re on.
And it makes me wonder.
Your head is humming and it won’t go, in case you don’t know,
The piper’s calling you to join him,
Dear lady, can you hear the wind blow, and did you know
Your stairway lies on the whispering wind?
And as we wind on down the road
Our shadows taller than our soul.
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How everything still turns to gold.
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last.
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll.
And she’s buying a stairway to heaven.
Row 1 – Stork, Rider and Fish.
Stagnant matters will stir up and begin to be resolved with the arrival of news which also sees money on its way to me.
Row 2 – Star, Cross and Tree.
Luck, destiny and wonderful growth.
Row 3 – Road, Book and Scythe.
A change of direction towards the unknown.
Column 1 – Stork, Star and Road.
Stirring up of events, luck and a new direction.
Column 2 – Rider, Cross and Book.
Someone is bringing me news of the unknown which is destined.
Column 3 – Fish, Tree and Scythe.
Monetary funds are growing and change or a sharp break.
Diagonal 1 – Stork, Cross and Scythe.
The end of something which is destined to move things along.
Diagonal 2 – Fish, Cross and Road.
Money is destined as a result of a new direction being undertaken.
A wonderfully positive reading which suggests lots of news is on its way, however the subject matter remains unknown at this stage. However, the result of this news is money, luck, growth and it’s destined to occur. A new change of direction is on the cards.
Row 1 – Letters, Stork and Bear.
News awaited about a big event.
Row 2 – Sun, Mouse and House.
Someone stealing from my house however the Sun overrides this negativity…huh?
Row 3 – Book, Tower and Whip.
The unknown about someone from my past will cause quarrels and strife.
Column 1 – Letters, Sun and Book.
News awaited about the unknown will have a positive outcome.
Column 2 – Stork, Mouse and Tower.
An event in relation to a negative person from my past.
Column 3 – Bear, House and Whip.
An important home will cause quarrels and strife.
Diagonal 1 – Letters, Mouse and Whip.
News awaited about a negative person in my life will cause quarrels and strife.
Diagonal 2 – Bear, Mouse and Book.
Something big, a negative and the unknown.
Yay for the Mouse being in the centre! There is a rather significant negative element to my week with its placement. Areas such as my House and someone from my past (perhaps they are the Mouse) are effected.
There is also a lot of quarreling and strife occurring as a result plus news about the unknown is on its way.
Not an entirely great reading.